**THE BETRAYAL**
(Episode 49)
.... i really can’t believe he forgave u”
he murmured, breaking the silence between us,
“yea because he loves me alot” i replied proudly,
“i know u won’t if u were in his shoes” i accused.
“i have to get going, it’s already getting very late,
“so what happens to us?” he asked curiously,
“Mike abeg there is no us, i thought u promised to
wait eternity 4 me nau?
Just keep waiting even if it means waiting till next
life” i said a bit coldly
I instantly snatched my hand.
I eyed him silently 4rm trying once again to leave
his car.
“cyndy wait” he commanded calmly.
I obeyed n stopped.
“i really can’t believe u went back to him after
what happened last night b/n us, so u will
continue sleeping with him as if nothing happened
abi?” he asked,
“pls don’t insult me” i replied n tried to alight 4rm
his car, but he quickly drew 4ward.
“what if at the end it didn’t work out b/n u guys
Can u live with the memory that u had the
opportunity to set things ??” he asked,
“i know u do love me, i know i still have the
treasure i took away 4rm u the very first time we
had fun.
Ben knows that, he equally knows u don’t love
him as much as u love me.
He equally knows he’s fighting a lost battle, n he
is habouring something which u r blind to notice.
What will u do if he finally abandons u @ a point
where there is no turning back?” he asked.
I silently shook nervously,
“pls Mike stop talking rubbish ” i murmured
“i tell u the truth, do u think he will ever 4get the
confession u made ??
I tell u, he will never forget it.
He simply begged cox he had no choice, because
he had his dignity to protect. U can doubt me, but
i swear u will remember this moment later. he
said while i coloured n shook immensely.
His words were hurting but i couldn’t find the
strength to run away, my ears eagerly listened.
I have explored the world n returned because i
discovered how unique u are, can u swear he will
return when he graduates n stays with the
memory of u exploits buried in his head??
He asked.
“I can’t lie! i know we both love each other, but do
4get the silly remark i made about waiting
eternity 4 u. I can wait two weeks 4 u to think
over all i said n decide if to continue with him or
start all over with me.
That’s all i can say for now my dear, so please
don’t hurt our future.
He concluded
I breathed deeply, summoned up my strength n
left
“I now have only two weeks to make the final
decision n choose between the guy i love n the
guy i owe my happiness, which way??”
hmmmm
** In Amara’s room **
“i really don’t know what to tell you, besides my
advice dosen’t count. Does it?” Amara asked after
listening to all i told her concerning Ben n Mike.
“i really won’t involve myself in ur affairs any
longer, just follow ur heart” she said.
Mike really was the person my heart yearned 4 n
following it could bring my troublesome spirit to
rest, but how to make Ben understand was
another prob which i truly didn’t know how to face.
It was very obvious he truly loved me, because
he sacrificed alot 4 my happiness n even forgave
me when i cheated on him. But my greatest fear
was that his love could fade with time, perhaps
when nature begins showing itself on me.
The age difference between us wasn’t that much
n i knew with time my physical appearance would
change much more than his. What if he dosen’t
get employed?
What if he later changes his mind about me, will i
be able to make up 4 the lost time? Will i be able
to fall in love again? Can i ever forgive myself??
No i can’t take such risk” i concluded thoughtfully.
“Campus love affairs are nothing but a fantasy life
we create and plunge our youthful life in just for
fun, Pride and experimentation. It mostly has no
longevity”.
However, due to the great respect and
commitment i felt for Benjamin, i made up my
mind to be with him till the end of his degree
exams, because I knew i won’t be able to forgive
myself if he lost concentration because of me.
But Benjamin thinking all was settling for good
between us began spoiling me with gifts once
again.
At first i declined accepting them, but he kept
insisting until i finally caved in.
We cooked, played and gisted like we used to, but
the only thing i denied him was sex. I refused him
access to my body but it never bothered him
because of his forthcoming degree exams which
he was preparing himself both mentally and
spiritually for.
6pm, Monday evening, two weeks later
I sat beside Mike in his car, breathing quickly as i
prepared myself to tell him my decision.
Truly whatever agreement we were to reach that
fateful evening will decide my fate and destiny. It
equally was the last day he gave me to make up
my mind.
“God alone knows our destiny”
**THE BETRAYAL**
(EPISODE 50)
......“so how far?” he anxiously asked,
“i havn’t been able to decide anything” i
murmured with a fast pounding heart.
“c’mon don’t tell me that.
Have u 4gotten i gave u only two weeks to
decide, why are u behaving like this?” he
curiously asked.
“Mike i’ll give u an answer at the end of this
semester, please allow me to focus on my
studies, i can’t be thinking of ur proposal when i
have exams to prepare” i poured out.
“i really don’t know the kind of game u r playing,
seriously i don’t” he complained.
“so what’s so hard 4 u to wait an extra month for
me to decide?” i asked,
“because i don’t understand u n i fear i may end
up killing my time 4 nothing” he replied.
“if u love me, u will be willing to take the risk” i
spoke defiantly.
He breathed deeply, grabbed my left hand and
stared into my eyes.
“tell me the truth, what’s happening please?” he
pleaded.
My lips quivered, while my bright eyes grew dim
under his manly grasp.
“but 4 1 thing, i would have said yes this instant n
gone with u to the very end of the world” i
confessed.
“but what is it, Cyndii?” he asked,
Mike– I cannot leave Ben by this hour, he’s
preparing 4 his degree exams please be
considerate.
Yes i’m with him, but it’s more of a friendship
thing ,but you don’t have to believe me” i
explained.
“It is the only atonement i can offer him, i owe
Ben this reparation 4 the evil i have done him n i
must make it till he completes his degree exams,
after which i will give you the answer you so
much desire” i added.
He drew nearer and kissed my trembling lips
“alright i understand” he murmured coldly.
“speak to me Mike, it’s hard, i know but tell me
that i’m doing the right thing” i begged. He looked
down and shook his head.
“u are cruelly doing the right thing” he murmured.
“i have to get going, i really can’t stand this
anymore” he quietly added. I stared at him
inquisitively but couldn’t say any word to him.
I quietly alighted 4rm his car while he furiously
drove away without even bothering to give me a
goodbye smile.
It really was a very painful parting n i couldn’t
help but wonder if he will ever return 4 me
I cried in my room as i thought over Mike’s
behaviour.
“have i lost him forever?” did i miscalculate by
pushing my luck to the extreme? I wondered with
tears.
I however devoted my time in being by
Benjamin’s side as his degree exams slowly drew
near, equally pushing my fears and sorrows to
the back of my mind.
In no time i got used to my new way of living,
hiding my fears with smiles, and taking life as i
saw it. Benjamin equally never gave me cause to
worry, he never brought up any topic that would
hurt my feelings nor even mentioned Mike’s
name. He truly was the ideal guy for any woman
but he wasn’t destined for me. I felt nothing but
commitment, compassion n little respect for him.
Finally the exams came and went with the speed
of light. Benjamin was finally a graduate. I really
can’t forget the night he graduated, how happy
and overjoyed he was and the miserable look on
his face as he begged for s*x after the
celebration.
He had insisted i spend the night in his room
when we returned from the party his department
organised. I agreed just to make him happy, but
when he began touching me later in the night, i
felt nothing but anger and irritation. I had to push
him roughly away from me.
“i have waited so long for this moment, why are
you denying me your body, are you upset over
something?” he asked anxiously,
“i’m menstruating, just sleep and let me be
please” i replied a bit coldly, but he wasn’t
convinced.
“it isn’t fair dear, why are you like this?” he
begged.
“seriously Ben i do appreciate your love, care and
everything, but this night is going to be our last
together, i have tried to develop more feelings for
you but was unable to.
Moreover i know your mum no longer likes me, so
please tonight is our last” i plainly poured out to a
visibly surprised Benjamin. He gasped, left the
bed and slept on the rug without saying another
word to me.
The next morning i left his room before he woke
up.
Though what i did touched me, i was very glad i
did it because i really couldn’t guarantee my
happiness with him.
He however never did spoke to me again.
He moved{packed} out of the hostel days later
without bothering to notify me. I was a bit
distressed because i really never wanted things
to end that way between us and would have
wanted for us to remain good friends.
Finally, I anxiously began waiting for Mike who
never showed up nor called on phone. I soon
wrote my second semester exams n travelled
home 4 christmas months later.
3 months i waited for Mike, but not even a single
phone call did i get from him. I lost hope, but for
my pride i would have called him myself.
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Perhaps he wasn’t in my destiny either.
Do You Think Mike Will Come Back ??
Should Ben Forget About Cyndii ??
WAITING FOR YOUR ANS
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